Three turn ons.
Blue eyes, hockey players and toned arms :)
today is wednesday and in 15 minutes i am leaving to drive into boston to go see my very first NHL game. i’m a washington capitals fan and tonight the caps are completing their preseason home-and-home against the boston bruins at TD Garden. i could not be more happier. hockey makes every little problem and annoyance in my life melt away into nothing for the three periods of ice time that i watch hungrily. though i have never played (at least for a real and organised team), i know everything about the sport and i grew up in a town that pretty much immortalises hockey players. my best friend and her two younger brothers play, her father played and so did all her uncles. so i grew up in that family and learned on her dad’s lap. something about hockey is so elegant to me, despite the missing teeth and the scrappy fights that most people associate with the game. but if you watch the players skate, watch the plays pan out, the fine tuned gesture of a wrist shot or the dance of a player’s skates as he dangles around a defender.. if you notice all these things like i do, then you will see the elegance that i see on a nightly basis. i love the sounds, sights and smells of a hockey rink, the basics that you can always count on. that natural gas smell, the smoothness of the ice after the zamboni cuts it, the noise the skates make as they cut into the fresh ice, the crack of a perfect slapshot.. all of those are heaven to me. they make me feel at peace. and tonight i can finally see the team that i have fallen so in love with. tonight will be my tiny slice of heaven.
today is tuesday and usually i hate tuesdays. i have class from 11-5, my day starting with a class with my ex boyfriend and ending in a 3 hour lab for something that doesn’t relate to what i want to do with my life at all. but this tuesday is a little better. my favourite NHL team plays tonight at 7, then the britney spears episode of glee (judge me, i dare you) is on at 8, and then teen mom (again, JUDDDGEEEE ME) is on at 10. lots of mindless tv to make my not so mindless problems fade into the background for an hour or two or three. i love when people make fun of others for watching the shows that MTV or VH1 or any of those channels produce. what’s wrong with being interested in a person’s life that is so unlike your own? i didn’t have a baby at 16 and i’m not raising it on my own with no help. so watching someone do that, to me, is extremely fascinating. i could NEVER imagine being so selfless and putting my life on hold at that young of an age. also tonight i get to watch last night’s episode of weeds and i want to die with excitement. weeds is my absolute favourite show (besides gangland) and i can’t watch it when it airs because my school doesn’t have showtime. but tonight i can watch it online and coupled with the other three things, my life really is perfect right now. and i wonder sometimes if such simple things like hockey and my favourite tv shows making me this happy is a good thing, but then i realise as long as i’m happy, who cares?
Four turn offs.
01. Cigarette smokers
03. Pittsburgh Penguins fans
04. A love of country music
i hate mondays. but today is weezy’s birthday and also his release of the i am not a human being EP. i’ve waited months for this, and it bums me out to say that i’m not that impressed with it. tha carter II is still my favourite album by him. tha carter III was also dope. and i know a lot of people hate on him, and i used to understand it. but now it just annoys me. yeah, if you only listen to songs like “lollipop” and “got money” i totally understand if you dislike him. those songs really aren’t that good. but i have 10 hours of weezy on my ipod and have listened to pretty much everything he has. if you really listen to him, he has some amazing lyrics, really clever fucking stuff that has me in awe each time i listen to it. i think my favourite thing about weezy is that he just always sounds like he’s having fun. he loves what he does, he’s dedicated to what he does, and that makes me (and millions of others) love him. he writes nothing down and all his lyrics are in his head, which to me, is absolutely fucking unreal. i wish i had that capability. he gets out of rikers on november 5th, so until then free weeeezy :)
this is one of my friends from school.
his stuff is amazing.
listen to it, love it, spread the word.
Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Six things I wish I’d never done.
01. I wish I’d never let my dad make me go to school in Rhode Island. I love it here, and I love my school, but I really know I’d be so much happier going to the University of the Pacific. I try not think about it much, but I really wish I had had the opportunity to go to UOP.
02. I wish I never believed my ex when he promised me forever.
03. I wish I hadn’t been so calm when my mom sold my pony behind my back, I wish I’d stood up for myself and made her life the living hell she made mine with that decision.
04. I wish I didn’t let my parents’ divorce get the best of me. I wish I didn’t allow it to shape the person I am.
05. I wish I’d never let a certain blue eyed hockey player into my life.
06. I wish I’d never said “I love you” back, because I wish I knew that it clearly meant nothing to you.
Seven things that cross my mind a lot.
01. Where is my ID card?
02. Why are boys consistently the stupidest creatures on the planet?
03. My phone. FUCK. Where is my phone?
04. I miss my best friends.
05. Is there really someone out there who is perfect for me?
06. Can hockey start NOW pleaaaaase?!
07. I am too stoned for this.
Did you ever wake up, and go through the whole process of pulling yourself together, remembering who you are and where you are, and then where you were? What you did last night, what you’ve done wrong. And then you remember that you’ve got a bag of candy in your bag. It’s in the big pocket. You meant to eat it last night while you were watching tv but you forgot and now it is there waiting for you! It is a reason to get up. To start your day! So much candy!
Life is gold gold gold gold gold gold gold gold gold.” —A Softer World
Eight ways to win my heart.
01. Talk hockey with me.
02. Make me laugh. A lot.
03. Wear Nikes.
04. Don’t lie. Be honest, always.
05. Don’t pretend to be someone you’re not. Let me know the real you.
06. I like pretty eyes. This isn’t really something you can change, but it’s a definite plus :)
07. Have a good music taste.
08. Be a good conversationalist.